beneath the skin

I really like this song by Signs of Betrayal. it has a strong meaning to it and the lyrics are marvellous. not as strong as opeth's but still... damn good. now im addicted to this song.

listen and you'll be sucked into the song. Enjoy! :D

If I could show you emotions I’ve poured into love

I could fill up the seas and the infinite above

But now I stand here hatred and heartache my sin

From the scars I have gained

That I would not ever wish on anyone

chorus:

And I can’t bleed

All these things done to me

They’re trapped in this skin

And they’re wrapped around my veins

And I can’t bleed

All these things done to me

They never will fade

Like a cold dark winter’s day

If I could take back the innocence I’ve lost in my life

I would bury it deep so that it would never die

But now I stand here blackened and tainted like storm clouds

That tear through the sky

With the tear like rain drops falling all around

dreamr

this hols has been a lazy one for me... have been night shifting. n dling n watching movies at night. its been sometime since i watched a movie at the cinema. the last one was being phobia2 with FL. wahh that was a long time ago lar...

usually whenever i sleep late, arnd 4-5am i can wake up arnd 11am. im an owl... i know... haha! i need min 4hrs of sleep only per day. haha! so these few days dunno y i sleep till 2/3pm sia... btw i do wake up for suboh ah. nt like sme ppl... hahahaha!

haiz... bt i think ive enjoyed the deep sleeps cos i always dream. i mean a lot. n if its incomplete due to accidental wake up... i would sleep again and try to complete it. LOL!!

so these few days ive been dreaming about soccer. and.... ermmm.... girlfriend. HAHAHAHA!!!

dunno y ah. bt these things keep being played in my mind. cos i know that soccer esp sanziro has been bugging me. once i dreamt i played against sanziro and i, alone, destroyed them. hahahaha!!! i would wish they come true. bt sadly its a dream. den just now, i dreamt i played as a defender. i played like baihakki. LOL!! den got once i dreamt of a move in streets thats damn style... maybe wana try it out later if got a chance. hahaha! syiok or whatt! i love dreaming... haha!

ok lah... bnyk mimpi ah kau... hahaha! ok lah. btw ive updated my private blog. those have access just check it out if u want. haha!

later gonna play soccer at bv. cant wait! really! kaki gatal. haha!

school's next week. mcm @@##%%... haha! sch out = project project project = die die die... hahaha!

ok ah! gd luck to me den...

Cheers! :D

tyre tyred tire tired try tried

wah wah wah wah............. its been so damn lazy to blog nowadays. been filling my hols with none other than playing soccer, its been soccer like non-stop.

the bv street stylerz, as they would now like to be called... haha. almost everyday dey come to my hse and lepak. watch movie. play ps3. play guitar. jam. damn syiok ah. this is life with brudders... bros before hos...

i dunno lah what will happen if i substitute my bros for a ho... ooops! or rather 'she'. hahahaha! confirm i will buih dem sia... bt nvm. this is when dey'll understand. i hope. LOL!!

HAHA!

been playing streets for most of the days... damn syiok. training field oso cancel. damn syiok! i realise after sanziro, we have definitely improved as a unit. jam is now much much more aggressive and much better on the ball and awareness. farid's control and movements has improved. aniq hasnt been playing much. din n nizam still the same. cos they dun come training wat... haha! oso... wan mabok can now oso at least hold the ball. but he tends to panic. LOL!!

i have been playing my best football in years. i've applied new tricks and moves... damn syiok. i dunno whether ive said it. but my new predator x has given me a new lease of moves that i thought i can never do. still remembered my 1st goal with this shoe. damn nice. a high ball by keeper. left leg control. keeper rush out. a gentle tap. sends keeper wrong way and a goal.

hmmm... what i take from sanziro most is: aggressiveness. i tend use my hands and push ppl more now. whenever im near to the ball. my hands will be by my side ready to push ppl. besides this ive got another trick. dirty play. lol! not the sliding one... but diver, faker and tripper. hahaha! i tend to go down easily although most of the time it doesnt hurt, i fell esp when i feel a brush on my legs or smething. then i fake injury. lol! and i notice i tend to pressure the person with possesion by their tail. then his leg will catch my leg whenever he pulled back his leg and attempt a shot. then he will definitely fall or smeting. sme ppl smetimes get fed up with me. haha! bt i dunno. i just follow behind wat. your the one hitting me... hahaha!

with our aggressiveness taken into a new level. its time to play in the Sunday League. wohooo!! last sun 1st time played and dominated the court. bt with thanks to zuhri, ab and brandon. haha! we stayed inside for like 7 games sia.. and i set up and scored most of the goals... damn syiok! wohooo!

just now played first at bv and then go to dewan. cos bv too many ppl. we played tong. not tiang. hahaha! and i was the tong master. scored 7 goals. hahaha! so... syiok ah! :D

and i thought i had broken my left leg sia after nizam attempted to block my shot. instead his misjudgement caused him to 'shoot' my left standing leg. i screamed in pain as i fell. i swear i could feel my bone vibrating after he hit me. never in my life i felt this b4. the pain unbearable. bt after a while it fades away den i feel i can move, stand and walk. but still felt quite weak ah. till now my left leg feel very weak. dang! now injured. shoot :(

wah. what an experience ah today... hahaha!!

ok dats all! this hasnt been a girl-friendly post. so bear with it! hahahhahaha!

stay fresh guys! :)

cheers! :D

:D

I feel so good now that whenever i bend over... rainbow falls out of my ass.

plans. events. plans. events. plans.

just now faj msged us... to inform us abt the possible outing this weekend. so damn syiok! cant wait. its been a long time since jiwes went out. hope faj bringing her girls... hehe. asik die sorg je mendak sehh...

did nt go penin just now. cos very lazy. felt like dling movies and searching for songs. its been quite some time since i explore new bands and songs. and ive dled a few movies for the movie marathon coming up next week. so great! cant wait.

this movie marathon thing is actually from FL. i still remembered we often crash at either my hse or shah's to watch a movie or rather movies... gosh! i miss those days... nowadays, FL got other stuff to do. always busy here busy there. want to organise something oso malas. cos i know they all wont reply fast or they'll always be busy. its just isn't the usual FL like last time. dunno wat happen ah. so very sad. hope everything will go back last time soon. luckily, eversince FL became busy... ive been looking for great ppl to go out with. and made great friends in the geng bola... they are the ones filling up the empty spaces left by FL. so i dun feel sort of 'lonely' anymore. though i still miss FL... not mentioning jiwes too!!

its the hols... and its when u can easily get bored. when u dont plan anything... so frm today onwards... im going to train my fitness and workouts back. like previously ah. long time never run. napha test oso coming in abt 1 month. so must train ah. i also aim to achieve the definition i want before NS. so hehe.

last fri my class had a bbq at pasir ris park. damn syiok and cool. we played card games and dares for most of the time there... haha! n i think i kena the most lah... -.-

here are the pics! :D

Class 3B04 with Sirajul Islam!!! wohooo!!!

This is the dare i made them do. wicked!

This is another i asked them do... Moooooooooo!!! hahahahaha

Self-explainatory. and yeah dats my feet. Shit.

The keling had to lick it!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Thats my leg. hair kena pull sia... nabe. -.-

This is the most disgusting shit ive ever done! OMG look at HX's armpit hair. eww!! yucks!!!! still makes me tingle till today.... :(

Sin Chyuan kena vodka shot with chilli sauce inside. cos he lost to me in 200m race... LOL!!

HAHA! keling kena mouth-to-mouth transfer. HAHA!

Playing the games... hahaha!

BBQing the food.

overall that day... these are the dares i kena:

1) eat 1 raw egg with chilli padi

2) smashed chilli padi smeared on lips, chin, under nose area.

3) whipped creamed my whole face

4) roll 2m on grass

5) run 200m

6) licked HX's nips

7) keling licked my leg

8) my leg hair kena pulled

9) saykok licked my toes

10) face slapped by a slipper

definitely got more ah... haha. yeah... this is what frens are made for lor...... hahahaha!

overall... had a blast!!!

ok dats all!

Cheers!:D

life is beautiful.

its been nearly 2 weeks since i blogged. its due to tests n submissions. so very sian ah. cant blog.

its almost 1 year since i moved from friendster to fb. so im happy. just checked out the new friendster... its already becoming too fb-like... haha. so dun care ah abt friendster. hahaha.

speaking of fb... just now i came across one of my fren's wall. and almost teared. wah. alfiyan so emotional sia suddenly... haha. but seriously... its so sweet lah. plus! i havent been feeling that same way for a very very very long time... he's a very very lucky boy though...

another thing on fb which i came across more n more often and it is seriously depressing. i kept on seeing ppl say... life is shit... life is boring... i dunno what to do with life... can life get any better... if you're thinking like this. SCREW YOU!! u can just might as well go and kill yourself. pls lah... when you say these kinds of things just look in the mirror and say "i am shit".... and not life. life aint shit. u are the one who made it shit. i tell u one thing... whenever ure bored... find things to do. search for things to do... there are many many things u can do. and when u feel shit. dun make urself feel anymore much shitter than it already is.... yar. and blame it on life. i live by these principles... so u can rarely see me frown or get mad or angry. alfiyan = smile = happy boy-always. :D

last week we had 2 games. one which i played for 15 mins which we lost 3-2 to CITI FX. dat game i played 3 positions. 5 mins on each position, amc, cm, dm. hahaha! the one i did best was amc. that is definitely my best position. 5 mins and i set up 3 through on goal opportunities, one shot on target and 1 offside which wasn't supposed to be cos i wasnt in the offside position. it was my teammate and bleargh!!! shit u ref. controlled the ball superbly n through on goal den kena offside. wth!

last game was a friendly. we lost 3-1. i played 10 mins only. bt wth. :(

after a few months... i think i have identified my strengths. they are: ball control, ball holding, vision, feeders, long balls, shooting, passing. my weaknesses are mostly defensive: 1st ball, tackling, marking, physique, strength, positioning. i really need to work on these as much as possible.

nowadays competition in sanziro fc is very very fierce. ur game need to constantly be up there. if not u'll risk not playing in the next game. and feel shit. last sat i trained like shit. cant even shoot properly. dats y i played only 10 mins in the friendly and was also the last to be subbed in. shit ah. depressing too. bt nevermind... i will vow to work really hard and prove that i really deserve to be in the 1st team.

not to mention this... after the regeneration of sanziro... i think i have learnt a lot from them. especially with the bros, alif, man and khai. esp khai. i learnt a lot frm him ah. i observe his movements, passing, feeders... damn nice. being with them certainly help... a lot.

last sat played st soccer. was using my new predator-x absolado(red/black). damn syiok! and i played extremely well. was at my top form. n i did tricks which i never know i can do. haha! even man was amazed. hahahhaaha!! he ask me to teach him but said i forgot. hahahahahhaa!!

im looking for a new soccer boot. i dun care grades anymore... just as long it is nice and good. dats all. it all depends on the person man. hahaha. im also looking for an arsenal shirt.

My plans for the week so far....

tmr - peninsula buy guitar strings. and soccer "training"

wed - soccer as usual

thurs - geng bola coming to my hse for jamming n ps3 session. lol!

fri - soccer i think.

sat - soccer training

sun - soccer match

tues - planning to go to escape of movie marathon at my hse with geng bola. hahaha!

fri - FL meetup.

Possible plannings (TBC):

night cycling (whole singapore) with FL n geng bola

BBQ with geng bola

escape theme park with geng bola

cage match with geng bola.

nash bday celebration with FL n syaz

speaking abt syaz.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAH!!!!!! cant stop laughing abt ytd sia.... hahahahhahahahahahahhaha!!! wohoooo!! :D

btw,

the chorus of the new song ive posted:

I'm the One that you've been looking for
I'm the One that you've been waiting for
I've had My eyes on you ever since you were born
I will love you after the rain falls down
I will love you after the sun goes out
I'll have my eyes on you after the world is no more

so u know what i do as a civil engineer?? hahaha! here's a glimpse: hahaha!

--> the streets are my passion. thats where i lay.

dats all!

cheers! :D